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Suicide Dictionary
Paul Lonely

'A startlingly original work of sheer genius--highly recommended, if you can handle it.' --Ken Wilber, blurb from Suicide Dictionaries by Paul Lonely

I have attached the first 5 entries of VOLUME 2.  I thought readers may be interested in what I'm currently working on.  The first book of volume two is titled 'Semiotic Butterflies'.  It highlights the 'differences' between 'the Butterfly' (every-present Ground) and 'the butterflies' (manifest world, including thoughts and feelings...ie I can observe my thoughts therefore I am not my thoughts etc).  This book also gives my interpretation of the four quadrants using a series of 50 poems/conversations titled with the corresponding label Ken gave to the level of development.  If you look at the way Ken designed/labeled the four quandrants, there are approximately 12 levels per quadrant...which equals 48 poems.  My opening poem describes where the cross-hairs intersect; a point I titled the 'embryonic butterfly' (a symbol for the beginnings of the manifest world).  The book will close with Taft describing the experince of 'the Butterfly' and 'the butterflies' as being NOT TWO (the 50th poem)...concluding Book 3.
 
I have also begun outlining Book 4 now titled 'Yeshua's Juke-box'.

Volume One of my book SUICIDE DICTIONARY will be availible in bookstores November 23 of this year (you can pre-order right now on amazon).  Ken gave it this endorsement:  'A startlingly original work of sheer genius--highly recommended, if you can handle it.'  Volume One consists of the first 100 entries taken from my Merriam Webster's collegiate dictionary.  I am also working on an Illuminated edition of volume one and would like to be put into contact with graphic artists willing to collaborate on this venture.  For more information go to www.suicidedictionary.com.   

Book 3: Semiotic Butterflies

101 ¹abortifacient

With his folded legs distinctly placed in the soft-worn grooves of an underlying cushion, Taft Merryweather envisioned the outlines of butterflies (spiritual, cultural, and scientific) while activating the ever-present energy of Enlightened Heart. At the outset the magic of these butterflies was the size of a closed fist, a contracted potential that hibernated on the petals of an endless flower still somewhat confusedly trapped in the confines of what he perceived as his precious human body and mind. The concrete surface of these all-pervading insects had no particular face, no particular gender, and no particular color other than a continuous glittering of rainbow lights back-shadowed by a pinkish haze caused by the natural superimposition of the butterflies over Taft’s beating heart. For forty-nine exhilarating days and nights, Taft Merryweather contemplated the existence (and non-existence) of these butterflies.
----Each moment he felt the insects were more alive, Abbot Ezra says.
The Butterfly!
----Though he himself was happily dying.

²abortifacient

----According to the wisdom traditions, Taft Merryweather says, the entire process of evolution or un-folding could never occur without a prior process of involution or in-folding. Not only can the higher not be explained in terms of the lower, and not only does the higher not actually emerge out of the lower, but the reverse of both of those is true. The lower dimensions or levels are actually sediments or deposits of the higher dimensions, and only find their meaning because of the higher dimensions of which they are a stepped-down or diluted version. Before evolution or the unfolding of Spirit can occur, involution or the infolding of Spirit must occur; the higher successively steps down into the lower. Thus, the higher levels appear to emerge out of the lower levels during evolution--for example, life appears to emerge out of matter--because, and only because, they were first deposited there by involution. One cannot get the higher out of the lower unless the higher were already there in potential waiting to emerge.
Abe Hendrik questions Taft about the butterflies.
----That Butterfly didn’t have to implant, Taft Merryweather says to the other Quantums. It’s like a pre-existing ultimate mushroom.
----It seems that way, Abbot Ezra says. Outside of time with no roots, no seeds, and no flowers.
----But this butterfly, the embryonic butterfly, Taft Merryweather says, was able to implant in the confines of a physical womb.
Welcome to the manifest realm.
----And thus began the practice of a festive unfolding.

³abortifacient

----The Butterfly and Merryweather were novices together, Abe Hendrik says.
----Their chores their thoughts their religions…
and even the soft-ness of their bodies
were exactly the same.
----According to the butterflies, Martin Fugat says:
How any other way could it be?
----The latter is more ancient than he remembers,
while the former is age itself.

----We, as the Butterfly, know this.
----Around the corner is always around the bend.
----Never quite making it is the story.
----But all the world in every moment
has so much to choose from. And every new world
is a choice and a moment
consisting of the Butterfly.

----Which for Taft was a sparkling montage of glittering replicas.
----Replicas encapsulated in the upper and lower reaches
of what for most had become a temporary series
of unaware nascent rituals.
----So how does the Butterfly feel about butterflies?
----Unable to be reclusive but completely alone.

102 ¹abortion

Dale Rutherford, Martin Fugat and Gordon Flannery fluttering prematurely through the doors of the Quantum Zendo.
----In its most stable condition called the ground state, Martin Fugat says, an atom contains a minimum amount of energy.
----However, Dale Rutherford says, when an atom is exposed to an outside source of energy, it may absorb some of it momentarily before birthing it again into the world as a form of light. An atom containing more than the ground-state energy is said to be in an excited state.
Dale Rutherford contemplates the conception of a rainbow.
----Such excitation can be produced, Gordon Flannery says, by high temperatures or by other sources such as electric sparks, arcs, electron bombardment, electromagnetic radiation, or even the energy from chemical reactions. Ordinarily an atom remains in an excited state only a fraction of a second, then returns to its normal energy state by emitting the excess energy as light.
Dale Rutherford begins to contemplate the impossible death of a rainbow.
----When light so produced, Dale Rutherford says, is dispersed by a prism or diffraction grating, the spectrum formed is observed to be discontinuous, composed of discrete lines, of definite wavelength.

²abortion

Silas Paul and Taft Merryweather discussing Quantum Convent, the Virgin Mary, Kwan Yin, Shakti and the legendary products of Adam and Eve.
----God distends the belly of every woman, Silas Paul says.
----Therefore, Taft Merryweather responds, in a higher sense, birth is not necessary.

³abortion

----Day one and night one, Taft Merryweather says. The atomic butterfly.

----Taft wasn’t neutral in a neutral vortex.
----His practice found grave-yards and carnivals
in the sutures of a neutron moon.
----But neither was he positive in a positive vortex.
----His kataphatic hymnals
needed balance
from the neutrality of breath.

----Which understandably, by definition,
remained in the world as a nucleus.
----A nucleus where marriage and maturation
of Sufi meditation and lyrical grave-stones
were configured to exist in a festival of clouds
and negativity. A festival that nurtured
the embracing of an apophatic butterfly.

----Yet Taft was unable to be negative
in this negative vortex. Claiming what is
and is not or vaguely holding back
in an agnostic swoon were for Taft
all isotopes of the Butterfly.
----Killing one design gives birth to another.
----Paradox is the pacifier for certainty.

103 ¹abortionist

----I abound.
----I abscond.
----I absorb.
----I accelerate.
----I acclimate.
----I accrete.
----I act.
----I amplify.
----I annihilate.
----I ascend.

²abortionist

The tandava.
----Twenty spiral galaxies are like castanets in the palms of his hands, Simon Warner says.
----And when I imagine his shoulders athletically see-sawing, Abe Hendrik responds, they encourage an infinitude of supernovas to fade into oblivion.
----In harmony with the interiors of the universe, Martin Fugat adds, his interpretive movements are lovely enough to out-expand our dependable myths of expansion.
----To such a degree, Issak Kidwell says, that every deliberate step of his graceful toes holds the ability to jump-start and integrate the bulk of a billion dimensions.
----And that for me, Silas Paul interrupts, is an indication that the Hindu sky is presenting every shade of all colors in a brilliant simultaneity analogous to God.
----Which doesn’t mean the illusion of onyx or the striations of a simple rainbow, Taft Merryweather says.
The polygraph of Brahma and Vishnu is motionless.
----This dance of Shiva, Abbot Ezra says in response to the monks, is flamenco and jazz, tai-chi and noh serenading the waltz of eternity.

³abortionist

A murder of infants is building sandcastles on the shoreline of Ambrojjio.
----Deus absconditus, Hugo Gustafson answers.
Simon Warner nods in approval.
----That’s correct, Silas Paul says while painting a rainbow on his canvas depicting a flock of ten crows.
----But do you agree is the question? Simon Warner asks Hugo.
----Most definitely not, Hugo Gustafson responds.
----And how do you know? Silas Paul asks placing his brush on the shelf of his easel.
----Because of them, Hugo Gustafson says directing all attention to the toddlers.

⁴abortionist

----Day two and night two, Taft Merryweather says. The prehensive butterfly.

----A mile above the river of the darkest conundrums, Abe Hendrik says.
----Just below the eye-spot
of an undeveloped Mercury.
----A chamber-maid in a fascicle of butterflies;
(nun-shaped like the body of Saint Teresa).
----Was begging the voice of Taft Merryweather, Silas Paul says.
----To define the consciousness of a flower.

----Petals with the insight of this question bloomed, Abe Hendrik says.
----From Taft’s meditation
with a valence of infinity.
----And it was then, Abbot Ezra says.
----Through the medium of saw-dust words.
----That Merryweather spoke
of the Butterfly.

----No ratio will describe it, Martin Fugat says.
----Its vegetable face is known to be indivisible and uncuttable.--
----No insignia will contain it, Abe Hendrik replies.
----These wings are fluttering
to where they’ve always been.
----Vivid are the incantations
of its lingering plenitude.

104 ¹abortive

In cardinal red robes with amber sleeves and orange cowls Dale Rutherford and Issak Kidwell listen to a lecture given by a duo of astrophysicists.
----The case for collapsed objects in some x-ray binary systems continues to strengthen.
Dale Rutherford’s cologne is the grassy cinnamon odor of a rabbit’s kiss.
----But there is now even firmer evidence for supermassive black holes in galactic centers.
Issak Kidwell’s cologne is the orange muffin delicate caress of a citrus tree.
----Gravitational collapse seems to have occurred in the centers of most newly forming galaxies, manifesting itself in a phase of quasar-like activity.
Dale Rutherford’s breath is the fermented vegetable slip of an upturned rock.
----These phenomena, especially the gas-dynamical aspects, are still a daunting challenge to theorists.
Issak Kidwell’s breath is the mellow lavendar blue turpentine topsy-turvy acorn smell of the woods at night.
----But there is now cleaner evidence, based on stellar dynamics, for collapsed objects in the centers of most nearby galaxies.
Dale Rutherford’s material body is the pear blossom sharp lichen hazel syrup semi-rounded bitter-sweet musk of autumn leaf-mold.
----The current evidence does not tell us the spin of the collapsed objects nor, indeed, whether they are described by Kerr geometry, as general relativity theory predicts.
Issak Kidwell’s material body is the apple cidery oatmeal jut of a baby’s feet in spring.
----There are now, however, several hopeful prospects of discovering observational signatures that will indeeed probe the strong-gravity domain.

²abortive

Ahl al-Haqq, following the Real.
----If your knowledge of the ocean has been turned to certainty by words alone, Taft Merryweather says.
----Then seek, Martin Fugat responds, to be drowned in the ocean itself.
----Don’t abide in borrowed certainty, Silas Paul says.
----There is no real certainty until you drown, Abe Hendrik replies.
----So if you wish for this, Gordon Flannery says, take a seat on the floor of the ocean.

³abortive

----Day three and night three, Taft Merryweather says. The galactic butterfly.

----At midnight on a bridge, Abbot Ezra says.
----On a crescent bridge, Silas Paul corrects.
----While floating in the sand-scapes of a liturgical Arabia.
----Taft observed a star in the redness of a milk-colored sky.
----And in the background was Muhammad.
----Part butterfly.
----And he was praying to a flower.

----At midnight on a bridge, Silas Paul says.
----An identical bridge, Abbot Ezra corrects.
----Two steps to the right on the shores of Byzantium.
----Taft observed a star in the redness of a milk-colored sky.
----And in the background was Ignatius.
----Part butterfly.
----And he was praying to a flower.

----At midnight on a bridge, Abbot Ezra says.
----On a kosmic bridge, Silas Paul corrects.
----While basking in an angle of multiple location.
----Taft became a star in the redness of a milk-colored sky.
----And in the background was a flower.
----All Butterfly.--
----So the parallax of Taft was a distance of zero.

105 ¹ABO system

----We baffle.
----We balance.
----We barter.
----We battle.
----We beckon.
----We befriend.
----We believe.
----We bisect.
----We bleed.
----We bloom.

²ABO system

Immersing four fingers into the bowl of holy water kept near the entrance to the Quantum church, Taft Merryweather, belated parishioner and non-local compatriot of Mohenjo-Daro, touches his forehead and his breast; followed by his left shoulder and right shoulder which signifies (for him) his unrelenting commitment to both vertical and horizontal enlightenment. (The liquid was cool and seemed to glide under his fingernails creating an immediate shock to the knuckle and then the wrist. He wondered if the miniscule depth his digits had penetrated could also have delved into the blessings spoken by a species of immaculate priests.) Pausing upright by the seventh row of pews from the back, Taft watches Hugo Gustafson, covered in his altar-boys garment of crinkled linen, ignite three savory clusters of ivory candles shaped in his mind like purified silos existing in the wax backwoods of God. (The flames were saturated with Yahweh and the creek-water genius of a little boys love. He wondered if these oblong ovals of heat could carry this blazing affection through his pupils to the mystery of interpretation lying somewhere beyond the essence of his brain.) Genuflecting while he stares at the gold-faced tabernacle, Merryweather surrenders to the eminence of the Great Other and prepares to participate in the trans-rational ceremony of Rome’s Blessed Sacrament. (Under a limestone Krishna and a mural of Arabic calligraphy the presence of this protective container seemed powerful yet unassuming. He wondered if the processed grains and grapes, trapped in this box like an unreligious ephebe in Socrates’ prison, still experienced themselves as something other than a tiny mound of flesh mockingly referred to as Gaia’s womb-fruit.) Joining the congregation in singing the Entrance Hymn, Taft observes Simon Warner wafting incense over the holy altar while Abbot Ezra Davenport bends to kiss its surface as a sign of submission. (The table was strewn with phenomenological artifacts: a peacock headdress, three Maori god-sticks, a basalt Quetzalcoatl, a vellum manuscript from a Zoroastrian priest, granite carvings of Agni and Indra, a replica of the Golden Temple of Amritsar, a Burmese Buddha, a mosaic of Yeshua’s bearded face, Sabbath lamps, copies of the Recitation and in the center was a microscope. He wondered if consciousness could expand to the point where a vast majority would see and feast on this smorgasbord as a contemporary method for embracing the Eucharist.)
Abbot Ezra turns to the congregation (with uplifted arms) and speaks:
----In the name of the Father, and of the Son, and of the Holy Spirit.
Taft Merryweather relaxes into Subtle Union.
----Amen, Taft Merryweather says in unison with his fellow benefactors.

³ABO system

----Partiality is the new sin, Dale Rutherford says.

⁴ABO system

----Day four and night four, Taft Merryweather says. The physical butterfly.

----Our religion is an amulet, Abbot Ezra says.
----And our elegies are a clue, Silas Paul responds.
----But only as an effigy of the Butterfly, Martin Fugat says.
----Which for Taft and his sweat-shop
of signified angels, Abe Hendrik says.
----Quantified the void of a meditating crown
into the butterflies of this parable:

----Two sages, both profound, Abbot Ezra says.
----Intermingled in the shadows of a Hindu Nile.
----To discuss the Inquisition of the Butterfly.
----And this was their solution, Silas Paul says.
----(When the abundance of tomorrow is the communion of today.)
----The Butterfly had a face which denied alteration.
----But the agency of its butterflies was surrounded by the agency of change.

----So Zarathustra made love, Abe Hendrik says,
to the Prophet (with collage).
----(The ions of their off-spring were butterflies of the invisible priest.)
----And were they here today, Martin Fugat says,
(in this polyglot world of expanding embrace;)--
----The fullness of their thoughts may not be the same.
----But the freedom of their blood would be true.